I've almost become a cliché now, what with the 'twin flame thing' and all. But the truth is the label was just what got me to explore what truly is my own awakening. (The 'added perk' of a twin relationship would be the assumption that they're also awakening, but I've found that to be true in some cases, and false in others. In other words: typical as anything.)He's hardly the first, but has been the one which shifted things the most. Until you've experienced a 'soul decision', it's very difficult to articulate. I hit a crisis moment which shut out all other influences besides my soul. There was no logic, sense, or even emotion involved. My soul decided. It was a bit like temporary insanity. It also led me to take an action I outright refused beforehand, swearing never, EVER to do.
But I've changed. My whole cosmology has changed. I'm not yet awake, but no longer asleep. I know just enough to be a danger to myself.
Was I 'due' an awakening? Possibly. I'd made the decision that I was going to relegate myself to a life of conforming to the circumstances I was in, rather than seeking true happiness which I'd deemed juvenile and idealistic. Those were all fantasies, and reality was something for which I needed to change in order to fit.
Then ... I met him. (Ain't that the way it always goes?)
The man of my literal dreams. My eccentric 'alien' stuck in time, (exactly the year 1963, for which I'd later learn the reasons), who'd given up on his own happy ending, resolved to endure his imprisoned life because there was nothing else possible (or so he'd deemed).
Now, when you flip it around, who is due the spiritual awakening and shakabuku? Maybe even both of us?
So he came into my life just as I'd decided to make the same horrible decision he did, essentially AT the same age that he did. For the same reasons. Obligation. Principles. Duty. Responsibility.
He thought he could live this way, or eke out some version of life as such. Instead he just put his heart in a strong-box and slowly deadened his soul.
He came alive once again upon seeing me. I was, well, speechless at meeting my imaginary friend -- someone for whom I'd had utter certainty, could NOT exist.
Push the clock forward 6 years, and I've been fully engaged in an awakening that saw a 'false twin flame' -- that led to my returning to my -- more likely actual twin flame, if such a thing is so -- anyway, because true love never truly leaves you.
For the past 2 years, he was right there with me, 'awakening' for lack of better. Ohhhh, the times we've had! The adventures! The incredible, reality-bending experiences! But recently, something within himself reasserted itself, and he's renounced all that we deemed ourselves to be. Can't say the reasons for that yet. It was definitely crushing, however.
So, here I am, with my 'kundalini rising' and such, and there he is, fully entrenched in the mundane and mostly material. Perhaps as he realises -- yes, this is important in order to build an independent life. But we don't HAVE to choose to simply NOT awaken because it's 'not convenient'. But then again, everything in its time, yeah?
Looking back, they both greatly contributed to what would bring me to awaken -- with only my potential 'true twin' awakening with me. Mostly. That is until he just completely ... denied everything. But what can you do?
Now that I'm fully on my path, confident with who I am, and carving my own road, that's honestly all I CAN do. For myself, and for him.
So I am, for most intents and purposes -- awakened. And he's been down the rabbit-hole with me, so it's up to him whether or not he -- heh -- cops to the domino cascade which his coming into my life ultimately created.
It's a bit of a chicken-egg thing. Did they trigger the awakening or were we due to awaken?
The world ... may never know.